Most readers believe I should not care what other people think or don't think about me. I can't say that is incorrect and I wish it was possible. I must admit it was my fault that I ventured forth to a place where people care only for themselves and for their friends. And if I had the choice again to go or not I think to go would be a sin.
How is it not possible to forget it? It is not possible because I feel like a transgression has been committed against me but it is not the case. The error is all mine so I have nobody to forgive. Because I have no one to forgive then I have to own the hate I feel. It is ALL my fault, but it is real. So how do I get rid of it?
The feeling that something SHOULD happen but will never happen might be the right way to describe the abyss that "satan" will be/should be/was, God knows, thrown into. Why do I say that? It is because how I feel about what happened to me feels like an abyss. An abyss pictures absolute helplessness I think.
How is it not possible to forget it? It is not possible because I feel like a transgression has been committed against me but it is not the case. The error is all mine so I have nobody to forgive. Because I have no one to forgive then I have to own the hate I feel. It is ALL my fault, but it is real. So how do I get rid of it?
The feeling that something SHOULD happen but will never happen might be the right way to describe the abyss that "satan" will be/should be/was, God knows, thrown into. Why do I say that? It is because how I feel about what happened to me feels like an abyss. An abyss pictures absolute helplessness I think.
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