Dear B*****e, I hate to assume anything without enough evidence but I have the feeling
you reported my thread for bad content. Is my opinion bad? I did not
write anything that is not true, did I?
I was a witness for a long time. At first it was difficult to pay the
best attention to what was said because I raised babies in the truth.
And after that I had what seemed like narcolepsy during some meetings.
It took every ounce of energy I had just to stay awake.
Then I got suspicious of the doctrine of Holy Spirit appointment of
elders. I saw elders in high appointment that had no tender affection
at all and I saw brothers with so much humble tender affection
I had to wonder why they were not appointed. One brother who fit
the last description was low income, a little bit gimpy,
not handsome, but clean, he seemed to be low in intelligence, but he
was a faithful witness. He was married and a very good husband
as far as I know. His wife was happy. She was a pioneer
and he pioneered often. But he was not an elder.
James 2:5 1 Corinthians 1:26,27
I witnessed a botched judicial proceedings. Even the brother who led it
said later to my friend (this is hearsay, he never apologized to me)
that they handled it badly. From the start I knew they had. I was a
spiritual mess. I could not sleep. I requested the Holy Spirit to please
show me in the Bible where they were right. But over and over again
the spirit anointed me with soothing balm. The Spirit showed me nothing
to vindicate them. But I forgave them, of course. Well, it was their
off course action that caused my distress which caused my revelation.
So I should thank them but I think I won't. I'm sure they would not
understand. But I might be wrong. I think I will wait for
"paradise" to find out.
After that I was wide awake for ever single syllable that was spoken by
every single member. I didn't see the wisdom, the love, the faith that
the society claims it alone has. At the time it was my husband, who is
an atheist, who showed me kind understanding with wisdom.
It was many years after the kingdom hall episode that I left.
I did not seek apostates out. (there is a scripture
about Paul, when he had his revelation he did not go to the nations for
confirmation...that's how I read it... but I can't find it). So I
didn't. Which is a good thing.
Now I am alone. The "great crowd" doesn't love me. I know because
I have not heard from them. When I was going through my very
difficult time they left me alone. If it really was "satan"
who was leading me away, why did not Jehovah
send a rescue to me? All they had to do is keep me busy showing me
love, consideration, and understanding. No one did.
For months, years now, no one did. No one.
How can that be explained? Now I am without friends. The
witnesses are cautioned to stay away. The "appostates" hate me,
I don't really know why. Both groups will claim they don't hate me.
OK. I suppose that matters to me a little.
I try to speak the truth. But it is true that speaking the truth makes
The Truth look bad. Whose fault is that?
Sincerely, I should probably say what I am thinking as I click "send"
In Jesus Christ Name Nancy
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